Friday, May 22, 2015

The big red!

My name is Megan, I'm 31 years old and I was born and raised in Ontario Canada.
I wanted to start a blog to talk about my battles and successes in life.

 I was never a rich girl I probably won't ever be either but honestly I wouldn't change that. I'm happy where I have ended up in life. I have to say that it has been one hell of a ride getting to where I am. I guess I shall start with the harder time in my life and the majority of that would center around my health issues.

 See I was a pretty healthy child growing up,. never really got sick to easily just your typical colds and flu. It wasn't until I hit puberty my life changed forever. I was 11. I remember it completely scared to death when I looked down into the toilet bowel and saw nothing but red. I freaked out!!!
Now let's rewind a bit here about a month before this my mom and I had the big talk you know the one your parents give you about the birds and the bees. You  know how uncomfortable that was? lol. Anyways she had put a package of pads up in my closet and said now when the day comes you will be ready and I will be here for you so don't be scared.  Don't be scared eh?  Me now looking down in the toilet bowel at a sea of RED!  Well let me tell you I was scared silly on the big day it came. I remember it not hurting the first time thank god cuz I remember asking my mom if it would and she said hers never really hurt her so mine shouldn't. I was so happy when it didn't. I was home alone with my brother ya, that's right my baby brother. My brother was always there for me just like I was always there for him. I panicked my mom wasn't around which scared me even more. So I ran into my room grabbed a pad put it on and ran downstairs to my brother who was watching a movie in the living room. I sat beside him and started to cry. He looked at me confused and asked me what was wrong. Now mind you my brother is only 22 months younger than me. So he really didn't know what a period even was at the time. But I told him anyways. He held me until mom came home that day from work. Boy was I ever happy to see her. I told her what happened and she smiled and said “everything is going to be fine you did everything right”. I felt happier to know she was there for me.  A girl coming of age really needs her mom the most even if there are times where you just don't want anything to do with her  lol Sorry mom.

Anyways  a few periods go by and they seem fine but very heavy at first. I remember days sitting in elementary school and I would soak right through onto the the chair it was scary I would run to the bathroom crying many times cuz this would happen a lot of the time. Then one month I remember waking up and all I could feel was so much pressure and sever pain in my lower back and pelvic area. The pain was so bad I started to vomit. I cried and cried and cried. It hurt so bad I didn't know what was happening to me. I wish I new then what I know now that, this was the starting of something that would haunt me for 18 years now. To this day every month is a struggle for me (pain, nausea, vomiting, shock). The pain is so bad. I was put on the pill on and off through the years and it does help a bit I will say but not completely. I was finally diagnosed with endometriosis in 2010. They treated me with Lopron injections which was hell and put me into an early menopause in my 20s.  This brought on a whole host of other complications hot flashes, sleeplessness, leg aches, weight gain, tiredness and terrible irritability.  So I stopped taking them after 3 months. They then tried an IUD which was the most painful procedure I had experienced, only to have my body rejected it 3 times. After that I just went back on the pill.

 Now here we are a few years later I am now having more flares and the endometrioses is now spreading from my uterus to my bowels and it's time to start talking about surgery options. So this is my first post and I will leave it at that for now.  I will update this blog as I go through best options, decisions and information on Endometrioses as I face them/find answers.  To be continued….

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